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writetomyheart2015-07-08 09:26 pm
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[Team 4] When the stars no longer shine
Hi. Long time no see. I know its been a while. But I am back.
And with depressing continutions of previous shiritori. But hopefully I can manage to start writing again. I managed to whip out something for this despite a cold and a business trip, so I am sorry its so short.
A continuation of all previous parts of my Crystal AU. The one where Tottsu and Fujigaya get turned into statues as a result of a curse.. The master post with this current bit can be found here.
His world changed the moment that Hasshi realized that the crystal statue in front of him was in fact Totsuka Shota. To be more accurate, his world stopped. He had listened to the works that Tamamori was speaking, heard the grunts and hmms of affirmation that Kawai was giving, but everything that was happening was slower and slower until everything around him faded. The actual words would not process until much later, when he was at Tottsu’s parents house offering is most profuse apologies for being the cause of --- he could not even finish that thought at the moment. It was too much.
Ba dum. Ba dum. Badumbadumbadum.
All he could hear was the sound of his own heartbeat, steadily rising faster and faster and faster and faster as the reality and the panic set in.
All he could see was the glaring brightness of the crystal statue in front of him.
Totsuka Shota was—
Moments before, that morning, every since he had met Tottsu his world had changed. Slowly it became brighter and brighter, shining with the light and the glitter of sequins and Johnny’s and stage performances.
In the hard times, the times that he lagged behind the others, their brightness spurred him on to do better, to try harder. Tottsu always shone the brightest, and he was the one that Hasshi had wanted to let down the most. Even recently, when Hasshi was sad and pouty in television, wanting to do more for the band, wanting to shine just as bright as everyone one else it was Tottsu that he wanted to impress the most. Tottsu who was in movies. Tottsu who was in stage plays. Tottsu who was all over the TV and the magazines and even a drama.
Tottsu was the star of Hasshi’s life.
And now that star was gone.
His world had no color with out Tottsu. What was the point. Hasshi loved Tottsu with all that he was, yet apparently somehow that had not been enough. Cause they were in this mess.
But Hasshi refused to life in a world without Tottsu, because without Tottsu there was no point.
Later, Hasshi would realize all of this. Later he would realize that he had never not gotten anything that he ever wanted, his stubbornness, strength of will, and a little bit of the Hasshi special brand of magic meant that he always won.
But for not, the only thing he could see was his Tottsu, immortalized in crystal, frozen as one fifth of a star, and his world stopped.
Ba dum. Ba dum. Badumbadumbadum.
Sinking to his knees Hasshi did not make a sound. Tears flowed freely from his eyes, streaming down his face and falling onto his shirt onto the floor, but he did not notice.
The one thing that kept his world turning was now forever out of his reach.
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yomimashou sorry for the random word!
And with depressing continutions of previous shiritori. But hopefully I can manage to start writing again. I managed to whip out something for this despite a cold and a business trip, so I am sorry its so short.
A continuation of all previous parts of my Crystal AU. The one where Tottsu and Fujigaya get turned into statues as a result of a curse.. The master post with this current bit can be found here.
His world changed the moment that Hasshi realized that the crystal statue in front of him was in fact Totsuka Shota. To be more accurate, his world stopped. He had listened to the works that Tamamori was speaking, heard the grunts and hmms of affirmation that Kawai was giving, but everything that was happening was slower and slower until everything around him faded. The actual words would not process until much later, when he was at Tottsu’s parents house offering is most profuse apologies for being the cause of --- he could not even finish that thought at the moment. It was too much.
Ba dum. Ba dum. Badumbadumbadum.
All he could hear was the sound of his own heartbeat, steadily rising faster and faster and faster and faster as the reality and the panic set in.
All he could see was the glaring brightness of the crystal statue in front of him.
Totsuka Shota was—
Moments before, that morning, every since he had met Tottsu his world had changed. Slowly it became brighter and brighter, shining with the light and the glitter of sequins and Johnny’s and stage performances.
In the hard times, the times that he lagged behind the others, their brightness spurred him on to do better, to try harder. Tottsu always shone the brightest, and he was the one that Hasshi had wanted to let down the most. Even recently, when Hasshi was sad and pouty in television, wanting to do more for the band, wanting to shine just as bright as everyone one else it was Tottsu that he wanted to impress the most. Tottsu who was in movies. Tottsu who was in stage plays. Tottsu who was all over the TV and the magazines and even a drama.
Tottsu was the star of Hasshi’s life.
And now that star was gone.
His world had no color with out Tottsu. What was the point. Hasshi loved Tottsu with all that he was, yet apparently somehow that had not been enough. Cause they were in this mess.
But Hasshi refused to life in a world without Tottsu, because without Tottsu there was no point.
Later, Hasshi would realize all of this. Later he would realize that he had never not gotten anything that he ever wanted, his stubbornness, strength of will, and a little bit of the Hasshi special brand of magic meant that he always won.
But for not, the only thing he could see was his Tottsu, immortalized in crystal, frozen as one fifth of a star, and his world stopped.
Ba dum. Ba dum. Badumbadumbadum.
Sinking to his knees Hasshi did not make a sound. Tears flowed freely from his eyes, streaming down his face and falling onto his shirt onto the floor, but he did not notice.
The one thing that kept his world turning was now forever out of his reach.
yomimashou sorry for the random word!