writetomyheart | [team five] untitled (BTS)

The same thing keeps on happening. Yoongi keeps on existing and Jeongguk just... keeps on hoping that existence turns towards him. It makes him feel... good. Which isn't actually a bad thing. It's just that all of a sudden, it feels like he's seeing everything that Yoongi does under a microscope. He notices every little thing, every movement, every quirk of his lips, every raise of an eyebrow, every look, everything. And it drives Jeongguk absolutely crazy. If he thought that he was nervous and worried about being around Yoongi before, that's nothing to how he feels now. It's like he's being led to a doorway he didn't realize he could go through before.

"Are you okay?" Jimin asks, laughing a little when Jeongguk jumps when he pokes him.

"What?" Jeongguk stammers, feeling his face down to his neck turn red. It's really not appropriate to be thinking about Yoongi in public, not when thinking about him leads to wanting something more. Maybe. Jeongguk hasn't decided what he wants because he's not sure if he's allowed to want them. "I'm fine." He rubs the back of his neck when Taehyung looks at him as well.

"You're really red," Taehyung observes.

Jeongguk bites the inside of his lower lip, wondering. He turns to his friends, who've just started to go back to whatever they were doing; Jimin, reading through his notes, Taehyung, playing a game on his phone. "How do you know you're over someone?" he asks out of nowhere.

"Uh," Jimin starts when he and Taehyung lift their heads up back towards him again. "I guess when you're comfortable being around your ex again." He furrows his brows. "Is everything okay?"

"But how would you know if you never see them again?" Jeongguk continues, ignoring his question and completely biting his lower lip now. "I mean, who hangs out with their ex again?"

"It would depend on the ex, I guess," Jimin muses. He nods towards Taehyung. "Taehyung does."

Taehyung shrugs. "I do."

Jeongguk's eyes widen. "What's it like?"

"It is what it is," Taehyung tells him, wrinkling his nose. "It's whatever. None of my relationships were ever too serious anyway, so it isn't a big deal. At least not for me." He runs a hand through his hair and Jeongguk wonders if that's really true. "What's going on?" he repeats.

Jeongguk stares at the table. "Do you think eight months is enough to get over someone?" he wonders out loud.

Jimin and Taehyung exchange a look and Jeongguk ignores what it could possibly mean. He just really wants to know what it's like and if this thing he's feeling for Yoongi is okay and valid. He wants to know that he can like someone else so soon after breaking up with someone he thought he'd be with for a long time.

"That's really up to you, Jeonggukie," Jimin states, reaching out to touch his arm. "You're the only one who can really say if you are over someone or not."

"Can you fall for someone so soon after a breakup?" Jeongguk then asks. His clasps his hands together, gripping them tight.

"It's almost been a year," Taehyung reminds him with a shrug.

"I just want to make sure it's not a rebound," Jeongguk hurries. "I don't want to do that. I don't want to hurt him like that."

Jimin exchanges a look with Taehyung, who raises his eyebrows in surprise. Jeongguk understands. He's never really given any indication that they're someone else. Unless that look of surprise is because of him admitting something that they already know. Maybe he said too much, revealed too much. He doesn't even know what everything is, what it means.

"You're the only one who can know what it is or isn't, Guk," Jimin tells him with a comforting hand on his arm.

"Or you can just go and find out," Taehyung suggests. Jeongguk looks at him with hopeful eyes. "You can just wait and see what it really is."

fairyminseok, your turn.

[team five] untitled (BTS)

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