[team three] the things i wish i could say

[wolfodder.livejournal.com]

Well. I finished The Untamed yesterday and I have a lot of feelings so here's a messy bit of it because I'm sick but still wanted to write.

You have blood on your throat. The image of the string digging into his brother’s neck — his brother — flashes through his mind as he looks at the line of red that’s just been there ever since he was taken hostage. It feels like days ago. He wonders if it’ll scar.

His nephew has the same red line on his own throat. Somehow they both seem as lively as ever, despite everything that’s happened.

There are so many things he wants to say. You have blood on your throat. Don’t tell me you’re going to walk around like that? You were so careless. You got us all in danger. I had to risk my life for you again.

No.

I had to make sure you were okay.

I’m sorry I was cruel. I’m sorry I blamed you. Why didn’t you tell me?!

He knows why he didn’t.

I’m not sorry for trying to protect you. But I’m sorry you had to help me anyway.

A thousand thoughts run through his mind. Someone else is tending to his brother, and he can’t stop himself from watching, wishing he had the courage to say what he’s thinking. It’s too late to mend this broken relationship. Too late to return to what they once were.

Later, Jin Ling will pester him about not saying anything, but what can he say to change how things have turned out? To change what he did? When Wei Wuxian is long gone, he finally says to the air, take care.

avantnuit it is your turn!