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[Team Four] The Pianist: Insecurity
Finally I got a grip of myself and managed to write a short drabble for this AU. It's one random scene, somewhere from the middle, and I've been very very busy this week so I got nothing else to offer for now. But! I got my inspiration back, I managed to write something so YAY.
“You have some explaining to do.”
“It's nothing,” Baekhyun winced, but he already knew there was no way out. Kyungsoo's piercing stare didn't only make Baekhyun wriggle in his chair, but also indicated his friend was very aware something unusual was going on. And Kyungsoo was the person who wouldn't let it go before he got a proper explanation.
“It's nothing,” Kyungsoo repeated his words, “yet, you still acted like a frightened rabbit when we accidentally bumped into your student and a friend of his.”
“Well, I just don't want to involve my personal life too much with work,” Baekhyun desperately tried, even though he was aware it was useless. He mixed his americano with a spoon while fiddling with a phone with his other hand, hoping Kyungsoo would give up. But of course his friend wouldn't.
Kyungsoo shook his head. “Bullshit. Did you two fight again? Did you yell at him? I thought you guys were already over that phase.”
That one was easy to answer. Baekhyun put his phone on the table and lowered his head, clearing his throat which felt suddenly very very dry.
“No, nothing like that.”
“Then what? Do you like him?”
At that, Baekhyun didn't have an instant reply. The oppressive silence that fell between them was more than enough.
“Oh,” Kyungsoo said, but he didn't look particularly surprised. “Well-- shit.”
“Yeah.”
“Are you going to tell him?”
Baekhyun uttered an amused mocking laugh. His so-called life had already been so pathetic he hadn't even played with a thought it could get any worse from that. But he had no intentions to make the mess even dirtier.
“No. Of course not.”
“And why's that?”
“Are you listening to your own words now, or are you even properly thinking about this?”
Kyungsoo shrugged in response. “I just have a feeling you might not be the only one with those kind of mixed feelings,” he said calmly.
The words made Baekhyun's insides flinch a little bit.
“Chanyeol's not interested in me,” Baekhyun started stiffly. Maybe to Kyungsoo, maybe to himself, who knew.
“Not in that way. Besides, I don't even know if he swings that way. Hell, he could even be in relationship without me knowing. Not like it'd be my business anyway. He can meet whoever he wants.”
“Okay, I see,” Kyungsoo said pointedly, with a knowing analyzing look. “You have feelings for him. But you are worried that friend of his is something more than just a friend, and you have already given up although you haven't even made your move on him. Yet still, secretly you're hopeful that kid might have feelings for you too. It's just you're too scared to know the answer – be it good or bad - and that's why you're so restless and anxious.”
Baekhyun heaved a long sigh. “Seriously, since when you have been like this? I thought one Jongdae in my life was already enough.”
“Uhm, someone who knows you well enough to notice this is really bothering you? Also, from what I saw today, I don't really believe that guy is anything more than just a friend. But you should talk about this with Chanyeol. Ask him.”
“It's not my business,” Baekhyun repeated with a defeated tone.
It was better to keep all the things like they already were. Baekhyun himself was the only problem here. But he had given up, and he just needed to get it out of his system now.
Put an end to it, one way or another.
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“You have some explaining to do.”
“It's nothing,” Baekhyun winced, but he already knew there was no way out. Kyungsoo's piercing stare didn't only make Baekhyun wriggle in his chair, but also indicated his friend was very aware something unusual was going on. And Kyungsoo was the person who wouldn't let it go before he got a proper explanation.
“It's nothing,” Kyungsoo repeated his words, “yet, you still acted like a frightened rabbit when we accidentally bumped into your student and a friend of his.”
“Well, I just don't want to involve my personal life too much with work,” Baekhyun desperately tried, even though he was aware it was useless. He mixed his americano with a spoon while fiddling with a phone with his other hand, hoping Kyungsoo would give up. But of course his friend wouldn't.
Kyungsoo shook his head. “Bullshit. Did you two fight again? Did you yell at him? I thought you guys were already over that phase.”
That one was easy to answer. Baekhyun put his phone on the table and lowered his head, clearing his throat which felt suddenly very very dry.
“No, nothing like that.”
“Then what? Do you like him?”
At that, Baekhyun didn't have an instant reply. The oppressive silence that fell between them was more than enough.
“Oh,” Kyungsoo said, but he didn't look particularly surprised. “Well-- shit.”
“Yeah.”
“Are you going to tell him?”
Baekhyun uttered an amused mocking laugh. His so-called life had already been so pathetic he hadn't even played with a thought it could get any worse from that. But he had no intentions to make the mess even dirtier.
“No. Of course not.”
“And why's that?”
“Are you listening to your own words now, or are you even properly thinking about this?”
Kyungsoo shrugged in response. “I just have a feeling you might not be the only one with those kind of mixed feelings,” he said calmly.
The words made Baekhyun's insides flinch a little bit.
“Chanyeol's not interested in me,” Baekhyun started stiffly. Maybe to Kyungsoo, maybe to himself, who knew.
“Not in that way. Besides, I don't even know if he swings that way. Hell, he could even be in relationship without me knowing. Not like it'd be my business anyway. He can meet whoever he wants.”
“Okay, I see,” Kyungsoo said pointedly, with a knowing analyzing look. “You have feelings for him. But you are worried that friend of his is something more than just a friend, and you have already given up although you haven't even made your move on him. Yet still, secretly you're hopeful that kid might have feelings for you too. It's just you're too scared to know the answer – be it good or bad - and that's why you're so restless and anxious.”
Baekhyun heaved a long sigh. “Seriously, since when you have been like this? I thought one Jongdae in my life was already enough.”
“Uhm, someone who knows you well enough to notice this is really bothering you? Also, from what I saw today, I don't really believe that guy is anything more than just a friend. But you should talk about this with Chanyeol. Ask him.”
“It's not my business,” Baekhyun repeated with a defeated tone.
It was better to keep all the things like they already were. Baekhyun himself was the only problem here. But he had given up, and he just needed to get it out of his system now.
Put an end to it, one way or another.
springmaid, your turn!